Catching Up

Have been catching up with many people this break, for me, its a blessing and a curse at the same time because i suckk at summarizing my life for the past "semester" in a nutshelled form. However, I do it because I love the dear people that I am getting to spend time with that I have missed for so many many months. It is such a blessing to hear so many things that they have been accomplishing and the different perspectives of their college experience, and the same things that we have in common with our experiences, and also the ways in which we have changed, and finding comfort in still being able to rekindle the person I became friends with in the first place, and realizing that our friendship goes much deeper now that we have to work harder at keeping in touch. Also, catching up with bea, still call her mrs. wakeling tho- was amazing to get her advice still, and learning still so many life lessons from her experiences. I am so fortunate to have such an amazing woman of God chasing after His heart as a mentor. These people inspire me to be better, and remind me of what I am capable of. They are like fuel in my gas tank and also the foot pressing down on the gas pedal to drive me to just go and grab my ideas and dreams and make them a reality. Such amazing feelings.
I also love catching up because it is also reflective for me to debrief on the semester because I am forced to spit it all out and I am reminded of things that I have accomplished that I completely forgot about. In this life, there are always going to be ups and downs, but you just have to keep looking up instead of down or to the left or right, and press forward. And also be reminded of who you are-last night, at church, the pastor talked about baptism and who that makes us, our identity in Christ. He talked about the world, and humans identities- like what people thrive off of and what makes people who they are. For me, I am a redeemed child of God, that loves Jesus and that is saved and alive in Christ. That is why I have a real, alive life. And that is the reason that keeps me going no matter what. I fortunately have a constant peace and do not have to win God's approval by anything I do, except love him. I live the way that I do with all of my morals and such because I want to praise Him for saving me out of the depths of darkness. I want to be as close to the light as I possibly can, because that is where the ultimate joy and freedom from anger, fakeness, stress, frustration, regret, guilt, shame lies. I stick to my morals because that is where the truth and the true freedom is.