So Much More

My immense love tongiht poors out on this keyboard. Thankful is on the palatte of my mind, body and spirit, has been all weekend. God has been so good to me, and has been supplying me with everything I need and have been asking Him for and it has meant so much more than I have ever thoguht! I went on the most beautiful bike ride, hike, and saw the most inspirational movie Soul Surfer this weekend. Got to grow so much closer in the relationships I have been asking God to foster. It is amazing if you really pursue Gods heart and really trust Him who can do ANYTHING, how much He answers you! And the thing about that is, he answers you because you are living out his will for your life! And his will is the BEST will!!!!! When I stop thinking about myself and rise above reproach, I see God, and I see blessing. He also has made me so close to Him I feel like I can just reach out and touch him slash just talk to him whenevver!!! At anyy time of the day! You really have to work at it, but it is so rewarding! God wouldnt have been able to get me thru anything this weekend, like riding 24 miles bike ride!! But still be able to enjoy every secind because He made it actually really easy! Also, I just was on Stuble upon, and the most amazing MLK speech came up, one that was never really quoted, but it was so beautiful, and my sufjan stevens pandora put on, or God did! the most beautiful instrumental music that went perfectly with his speech!!! Can't deny Him!!!!!

heres the speech:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HlvEiBRgp2M

Feelings of Relaxanggg

Just going to let me hair straight down on the town tiiniiight and be free! Free as a spirit bird flying around the world! I am going to just let it all down and relax! Malina and I are going out on the Petaluma downTOWN tonight, a getaway from the normal campus! Old Chicago Pizza here we come! yahoooo!! :D we will laugh alot!!!!!!

tiny victorian cottage « Sharona Design

i want to live here. this is so blissful. a feast for my eyes and i am so thankful God makes places like these :). tiny victorian cottage « Sharona Design

Thankful

Today I be thankful for soo many blessings. Gos has revealed all of the things I have been needing to thank him for these past few weeks and he revealed them today! I am so thankful for my health! A healthy body, feeling just yourself to do the normal activities of the day is so taken for granted and since i was sick for the last week and a half, I realized today how thankful I am to feel good again! I felt so good today! Praise God Whoop Whoop! Also, I am so thankful to have been blessed with the gift of Malina Akau, my new best friend and sister in Christ! God gave her to me at the PERFECT moment when I really needed a friend to depend on and didn't even really realize it, but she has been so amazing to me since I met her. I am continually gladdened and filled with inexplainable joy through our conversations, laughter about weird things that no one else i have met here at sonoma understands, passions, her goals and ambitions and morals and maturity and outlook on how she lives her life is so selfless, and even challenges me in how i live mine and keeps me in check. I am so so so thankful for these things! I am also thankful for the way Jesus has been walking with me this week in my studies! He has given me so much extra energy and PATIENCE! To accept the things that I cannot change (people and their attitudes, school work, study load for examples this week) and to just surrender and move forward! And to keep loving. I am thankful for the capacity that comes from God to do these things. I am also thankful for being able to have this outlet to just process everything. whoooooooooww. I am also thankful for GETTING MOTHER NATURES GIFT TO WOMEN TODAY! (sorry for all who are reading this, i really am thankful for this, we are all mature here :)) Havent had it in 2 years and God answered my prayers and now I do not feel like an alien woman anymore! Thank you Lord for answering so faithfully my prayers! Lord, you reign Furvently on this earth! I see you in everyone, in everything, in every situation. You destroy the broken and build up a majical built masterpiece. You provide healing to the MOST broken and the MOST hurt. You are the ultimate. The One and Only. The Great Bambino (jk,,:)) The TRUTH. I am also thankful for making me more bold, thank you Lord for answering that prayer, Lord :) :). Thank you for continually healing my heart from my past problems that I have let go, but are still trying to get me by the enemy! Thank you for always being my STRONGHOLD! You defeat the enemy!! Yes Yes Yes Lord you defeat the strongest willed force of evil always! You make my heart glad and giggly with overflowing joy! You make me want to DANCE the greatest dance of all time! Everything I do, I do in Your Name! When I sing, I smile and I dance to you!!! You are my light and my life! Amen Amen Amen! Lord God I give everything to you! I confess my faults and that I am deserving of NOTHING, that I am filled only because of YOU and YOUR GRACE! diddly diddly diddly deeee.

Water

Good ol' h20. It is over rated these days. With all of the convenience our world offers, especially all of the zero calorie options, it seems almost impossible to want to drink the first and formost pure substance of our existance. It is getting harder and harder to drink water because instead, you could have your vitamin water, or your crystal light water, or your flavored sparkling water. There is even a market now for how your water bottle is designed, to make drinking water more appealing. I am guilty guilty and guilty for buying into all of this. The whole splenda, equal, sweet n low, and artificial sweetners get me every time. It is hard to wrap my brain around the whole "chemical can cause diabetes infecting your body worse for you than regular just drink the regular" deal. Because if I drink the regular, then that means I can only have one instead of two and that stanks. But regardless if you are hoppin on my bandwagon right now or agree that I should stop eating things with artificial sweetners, I ask this question...Do you take for granted clean drinking water? And I think if you are an American, and furthermore, if you are in a place that has internet connection, which you would have to be to read this blog, than you prolly have access to clean drinking water and do take advantage of it. Me? ..guilty....soooooo guilty. So, some people found out that Africa is one of those places that doesn't take advantage of their clean drinking water...why? Because there is none. Well, actually it is deep, deep, deep down in the ground where only lots of drilling and digging must be done to obtain it. Becasuse of their lack of economic system, they do not have access to drill or dig. So, the same people that found this out, decided to do something about it(YES). They started a nonprofit to install $5,000 wells. Not only do they install them, but they teach the locals how to sustain them, so that they can continue to sustain themselves and not rely on others. Amazing stuff. In heaaring this, made me think about my conviction in this and how I take advantage of how good water tastes. So for two weeks, I am not going to spend my money on anything else than water- and the starbucks, petes, jamba, yadayada yada beverages, I will donate that money to the well. I am also, for a sacrifice to sink a little deeper to Jesus' dying for me...I am fasting from all other beverages, even though I have coffee and tea laying in my food pantry right now..I am denying my needs and taking up my cross to come closer to what Jesus had to go thru to save me from my sins. This seems like a pety thing compared to Jesus dying, but it is more than nothing, and is going to be my personal struggle. extremely difficult struggle because i personally am obsessed and prolly quite addicted to coffee. there, I admitted, thats the first step, and the second step is me taking action to rid myself of something I love, for Jesus' sake. Whew. i am going to be coming back to this blog lots during these next 2 weeks, well 12 days now actually!

Encouragement

Have been lagging on my blogging lately... My bad. But this week has been a complete whirlwind, good but crazy busy. And it is only tuesday. Monday felt like a whole week in and of itself: I did.

-class from 8am till 11am
- gym- kickboxing class that kicked my butt!
- met with sara for womens greek bible study
- practiced with jacky for bsu hip hop dance
- scarfed some grub
- went back to practice for hip hop
- went straight to bible study
- went home, showered, hit the bed... whew!!!

I just wanted to recap, because of the book I am reading. called A million miles in a thousand years- talks abt at one point- how we dont remember half our life, and im trying to write down more memories.
I had a beautiful conversation with my friend Bentley, hes a junior and asked me totally out of the blue- about if i go to that "christian club" on campus and about if there are bible studies

Being Thankful for thy gifts.

Hola. yoyoyoyoooy. I am filled with so much goood food and joy within my heart because God is opening my eyes to the many things i am so blessed with. Like, i wouldn't feel so blessed feeling the amazingness of my work out tank ( ya know that breathable material that athletes wear, ohh yah the good stuff) if it wasnt for God. I am thankful for the little things like that tonight i was able to realize them. That was just when i was folding my laundrey tonight tho, after one amazing afternoon and evening with my frickin awesome hipster aunt Dafna. Ya, shes pretty AWESOMEEE!! hehe, she doesnt think she is "hip" but she IS! Haha, im laughing at the thought of her reading this if she ever does..you hear that aunt dafna YOU ARE COOOOL! And so are you uncle Chris :). You both are!! But Dafna specifically i click with so much because we are both such foodies haha, and are both really easy going and i love talking with her about where shes been in her life and getting her advice on things. We went to venice beach today and walked all through the boardwalk, saw many interesting individuals down there, and saw lotssss of good num nums to eat! def making another trip back there just for the food haha. But it is so beautiful at sunset down there- we got to walk on the sand- i get so thankful for the sand now that i dont have it in sonoma. meh. but its good cuz i am more thankful for it now..But man oh man was the sunset beautiful. We met some pretty interesting people. i love meeting cool people- we went into this coffee shop and just chatted with the owner- his name is sean. first we were just talking about coffee and then found out he is from iran, moved here to the states in '84 after the revolution in iran. hes been all over the world- mainly in europe and so we chatted about his favorite places- he said the seafood in northern italy and how much he loves paris. his favorite. then we met this other man on the boardwalk and hes old, my aunt loves dogs and was just chatting with him while i was looking at feather earrings. she loved his voice- it was really smooth like italianish- but he is from germany orig- and then grew up in argentina- and he was saying alot of things, but i loved how he lives he said he doesnt pay attention to time anymore- he asked us if today was either saturday or sunday- he could tell because of all the people- weekend- and he said he doesnt keep track of time, but he wants to not be controlled by it and just live life timelessly. so that was pretty sweet. thats not something i would do but i dug it.
i also found out today that american apparel's owner is like this sick sex offender dude- and takes all of the pictures for the clothing models- in like private rooms and has sex with all of them-EWW- and his motto is "oh its all just sexual"- like totally honest about it- but has a really bad rapp from alot of people- made me kiiinda not want to ever shop there again cuz i toates dont support that-but the clothes are so well made and i love themm, so i think i still will shop there. idk ponderin. but okay so after venice adventures, dafna took me to this amazinggg restarant in santa monica- 3rd street prominade- called Zenga- it was like a fusion between mexican and asian food- mostly asian tho- our dishes (small plates) consisted of: bbq pork rice noodle dish wiht like green onions, blackened cod (best fish i have EVER EVER EVER had omg), hot and sour soup with dumplings inside, yellowtail sushi roll with avo and chipotle sauce, and peking duck tacos and they used rassish slices instead of tortillas with this sweet sauce and slices of cucumber- o m frickin G. so freaking amazing ive never tasted anything like it. So that was greaat! i had to write all of this down because i dont ever want to forget this amazing meal. i will look back on this blog at school when i am starving from gross caf. then after that we got gelato, as if we hadnt had enough food :) i got cappuccino cookie, and dafna got cookies and creme. we had amazing conversation the whole time about so many things. i really enjoyed my time with her and i am so thankful for being so close with so many family members both in a group and individually. it is such a blessing and a gift. then the whole drive home i got the best playlist from pandora. and the moon was AMAZING. first it was this light orange color- and gigantic!!!! and it was just so peaceful, and kinda had a surreal out-of-life- experience looking at the moon- thinking that woahh, this thing lights up the entire world- there is only one of them and it privides enough light to light this whole world! And how creative God is for making that. and how it frikin stays up there- like just floating- and how we stay like just floating as Earth- in the galaxy- this song "hes got the whole world in his hands" just popped in my head. crazy eesh. my sentances are getting smaller and shorter. i am tired now. goodnight moon, goodnight God, goodnight earth.